Listen to your gut?

Many of us have those hopes, dreams, and goals we dare not utter to another soul for fear of ourntiny flame being ousted. Perhaps your closest family member, spouse, or best friend may hear whispers of your deep desires and hidden wishes. Sometimes there isn’t another person you trust with the tiny dream in its infancy. Sometimes you are the only one that can fan your flame while holding a little umbrella to protect it from the doubtful downpour. 

There are times when it feels as though we are the only ones in our corner with this gut feeling that we must protect and pursue our dream. Your dream may take you off of the well lit path into the dark dim terrsin. You may be unsure of your footing but your dream grows brighter lighting your path. One day when your flame shines bright you may look back and see others making their way down the trail you blazed. 

The Changing Tides

In this past week I had to close the door on many ventures and open the doors to new progress, change, and personal development. It was sad to see some of my labours of love disappear, but it made space for the new opportunities and growth. There have definitely been some growing pains alongside these new opportunities; however, I worked hard, had faith, and pressed forward in tough times. I had to be very resourceful under time constraints. I made it out alive with the help of my loved ones around me. Things change. Sometimes it happens with a cool and calm reserve, but other times it happens quickly with a gust of violent wind rearranging everything with a steadfast will. 
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– Liz

A hard pill to swallow

It can be very trying to collaborate with individuals that just rub you the wrong way. I am very glad that I can be very flexible and at least understanding when it comes to navigating difficult professional relationships. Whether it be personality clashes or polar opposite attitudes; I personally found it valuable to demonstrate an ability to work with a variety of individual’s personalities, communication styles, and over all attitudes. Have I met individuals that I would not want to work with if given the choice? Yes, of course! However, I will not allow another person’s actions to dictate my reactions. I can’t control anybody or anything but myself. I am responsible for myself and the actions I take. I aim to have thoughtful actions. I do not like to blindly react to things without analyzing a situation first. Even in emergency situations you need to think quickly before you act. It is like a reflex for me to analyze before jumping into something. My overall thought is that it’s important to know yourself, be aware of yourself, and try not to allow an external individual take control of your reactions and outcomes. 

Fragmented

If things had gone differently I wonder what life would have been like? I feel like I am longing to understand a part of myself that I never really got to know. The culture I was only exposed to in bits and pieces. I feel fragmented at times. I know nothing of the mother tongue of half my lineage. Parts of me want to explore, parts of me feel cautious and weary of my naivety, and parts of me feel too far removed from the culture I never truly knew. 

Reflection

As I prepare to complete another year of my life on this Earth, I like to reflect. I think I’ve done well in terms of my professional development and personal growth. I feel as though I’ve begun the transition from the planning phase into the implementation phase. All the things I hoped, planned, and prepared for all of these years have​ begun to come to fruition. 

I do feel blessed to have all of the opportunities that have been afforded to me. I am grateful for the mindset, coping skills, and motivation my family and community have cultivated within me. I am thankful the paths known and unknown that I’ve traveled thus far. I think I can sum up my year like this: you’ll never quite know what’s around the corner until you get there or you have a better vantage point. As I go forward another year wiser and eager to learn, I will work on putting action to my words. Time step into the water; just getting my toes wet is not enough for me anymore. Here’s to a year of dreams, hopes, and plans manifested. 

Uncertainty

What do you do when you hit a fork in the road? There have been many times in the past when I was uncertain and just plain stuck between decisions. Do I change my field and complete a professional degree or do I go to graduate school and remain in my current field? Do I take that position or do I move for a better potential opportunity elsewhere? Do I stay or do I go? I could go on with the many options that I’ve encountered over the years. As I reflect, I notice that it wasn’t that I truly was uncertain it was more that I was fearful of the outcome if things didn’t workout or lacked confidence in my ability. In my heart I knew the option I was more in favour of, but I also knew my choice was often the more risky option. In the end I usually ended up going with the safer option.

 It’s a difficult decision the tred the more risky path, especially if you are not the only person your choice will impact. After deciding upon the direction I wanted to take my life I said “why not try the risky path” the worse thing I could do is fail. I’d rather try and give it my all than stay too safe and constantly wonder if I would have made it. Would I have been great at that? I am in the process of motivating myself not to settle for mediocrity and complacency. I don’t want to have regrets to ponder about decades from now. There is a time and place for “safe” decisions there also times when you know deep down that you want to try and take the risk. When it comes to decisions regarding the overall direction of my life I now ask myself  if I had no fear and no doubts which option would I choose and why. What is really holding you back?  

Refocus

Sometimes it’s good to realign your actions with your values. It can be challenging, in a world seemingly littered with obstacles, fear, destitution, and heartache, to maintain your identity and follow through according to your values. There’s a time to rest and repair yourself and there is also a time to step forward and continue on your path. Well for me, it’s more like simultaneously shifting in and out of self-care, refocusing, and continuing towards my goals while reminding myself to help the people around me as well. Sometimes we get off track. It may a little detour or it may be a bare footed journey across harsh terrains to reach our goals. Our path can always be rerouted. Some ways are longer than others. All that matters is that you arrive eventually. Sometimes the places we think are the destination turn​ out to be pitstops. We simply reset and continue onward.