New Calm

There is a certain peace that washes over when you put your fear and anxiety aside and dare to put your dream in motion. Sometimes you need to step into the dark with perserverance as your only light. Sometimes the weight of fear and anxiety can slow you down and even cease your progress all together. Drop the heavy sandbags and dare to live. 

I recently began this very process and I honestly feel different. I feel calm and relieved that I am going forward and not stuck in a cycle of worry and doubt. Constantly standing, pacing,and fretting at the starting line felt so stressful. Always too afraid to move. Once I started taking steps forward I had to drop the weight of worry to move freely and uninhibited. Starting can be a hurdle in itself. Lighten your load. 

Don’t Lose Your Rhythm

Sometimes life gets you down, and sometimes life hits you with a 4 ton truck and throws you into a compactor to seal the deal. What do you do when you feel crushed beyond conceivable repair? What works for me is scaling back and focusing on simplified smaller goals. I’d rather accomplish 5 small things than remain frustrated that I couldn’t accomplish one large goal. Focusing on one small step at a time helps rebuild my motivation within. If I think too far and wide I’m swimming in despair and doubt before I even begin. You need time to catch your breath after a personal shortcoming or failure. 

As long as you stay in motion, it doesn’t matter how miniscule you feel the accomplisent may be, you’re still making progress. If you want to get from point A to point B you will have to carry on. Failures are inevitable; how you proceed afterward is important. It’s like an athlete training and pushing their body beyond what they could do the day before. They maintain their training schedule. If they become injured they take the time to heal and modify their regimen until they are ready. Yes you may have your big grand goal in mind, and that is great, but you need to be able to scale it down to how will you defeat today’s challenge? How will you meet your goal for today? At the end of the day are you better than you were yesterday?  If you’re persistent with your smaller realistic goals you can eventually acheive the larger goal. Sometimes I need to remind myself it is me versus me at the end of the day. Don’t lose your rhythm just because you fumbled a few beats or maybe you’ve been at rest for an entire movement in the music that is your life. Regardless, get back in there. Jump back in if you must. Keep moving and living. Don’t be frozen in a cycle of thoughts and actions. Just because you’ve been stuck on repeat for a very long time doesn’t mean that’s​ where you must spend the rest of your days. It can be hard to swim against the current. It is hard to go against what may  be easy and comfortable. Muster up what strength you have left and break out of stagnation. You may just surprise yourself.